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But if your heart's not in it, for real.
Please dont try to fake what you dont feel.
If love's already gone,
Its not fair to lead me on.
Cause, i would give the whole world, for you.
Anything you'd ask of me, i'll do.
But i wont ask you to say,
I'd rather walk away.
If your heart's not in it.
i stumbled upon this photo on friendster,
and i think she looks ever so charming. :D
thats abit random i know, but shrugs.
its coming to the end of term two, how fast time flies!
i finally finished the dreaded chemSPA yesterday,
and i have another hurdle more to go.
i have 2.4km run tomorrow, damn!
i've been feeling so sick for the past week!
immune system's been really down.
it all started of with fever, sore throat and now cough.
so much have been happening in my little life that i cant remember everything to blog all of them down!
today was really sweet because school ended early, :D
in celebration to our victory in the vball guys Adivision and the bball guys for coming second after a really tough and close match.
best of all, i could sneak an hour and a half of sleep before going down to watch the hockey finales today.
i badly needed that sleep, and i totally forgot abt that pig next to me, whom i could snuggle close to. :)
nonetheless, sleep was like heaven.
cat out of the bag, i fell honest with my darlings today. :D
the j1 hockey girls are starting to come together,
getting to know each other and bonding really well together!
nay gyot tay :D
my mum hasnt been home for three days alr.
she's at my grandma's place cos my grandma's currently looking after her!
she feel sick after drinking my drink when i was running a fever.
WOOHS! like once i read somewhere,
dont test your immune system by kissing yr sick boyfriend.
one word of advice, dont test yr immune system by sharing drink/ kissing/ whatever with someone who is sick.
like i was telling my sugar today,
i'm utterly turned off by some disgusting people.
and it turns out that, another darling of mine share the same sentiments too!
perhaps the entire world is feeling irksome by them, i dont know.
but i certainly despise people like that.
i am totally anti-guys because all of them are jerks and bastards.
apparently, i must mention that, some bungs/butches fit into the bastard category too.
i was back in cedar today, and i much i miss those days at school!
with pris, sze, feli kor and ena my bitch. :D
not forgetting my dearest chengyi, we certainly make so much havoc.
gone were the days when i could enjoy the presence of an entirely female class.
damn, i miss cedar =(
aj vball guys emerged champions,
we're waiting for the bball guy's showdown tomorrow. :D
i'm going to scream my lungs out again.
baby, you're my sugar rush.
oh yes, this song's so stuck in my head now.
that ever sweetest thing was so sweet to stay up til six in the morning just to find the songs i want. awww
tell me, where can you find someone so sweet like her! :D
today is a sunday,
and on sunday, zq is supposed to be my girlfriend.
now tell me, where is she!
two busy weeks up ahead,
the most dreaded SPA(s) are coming up.=(
tommorrow marks the end of my hockey tournment 2006.
it was so sad when we lost our crucial match against nj 1-0.
it was so near, yet so far.
i love the team, i cant bear to see them go.
i'm going to get my new urban male bag real soon.
i looks simple, but i dont care i like.
randomly, i love you. :D
bi an nay, sarang hae.
in the darkness, a girl sits alone.
pondering over her mistakes, she blames her pride for getting in the way of doing this.
she blames herself for always being irrational whenever anger gotten over her psyche,
and that she never fails to say things that you knew she would regret.
she said it anyway.
perhaps there was a limit to everything.
perhaps the other party was tired of giving in, and tolerating.
then she walked out of her life, leaving her all so neglected, forgotten and lonely.
the ragged, unwanted doll once more.
dont care abt her, let her cry in the dark corner all alone.
she doesnt deserve to be cared upon.
it has stumbled upon me that i've lost all the self-discipline i once had.
i've been placing my priorities all wrongly.
with the lastest korea drama series (featuring rain) that i've been watching for the past week, topping the list,
then coming online.
i then take the remaining time to UNDERSTAND my lecture notes in preparation for tests.
gone were the days when i could go and sit for tests and sometimes exams where i hadnt study at all.
and now, i dont even understand a thing going on in school.
i sleep during lectures and tutorials.
i go home so late after hockey, both physically and mentally drained.
i'm tired, you know?
i'm tired of life already.
money seeds anyone?
i was diligently saving up to buy my newurbanmale bag.
and unknowningly, the meagre amount of forty bucks were gone.
perhaps i spent it unconsciously,
or perhaps i dropped it somewhere.
i dont know, all i know is that this saving up plan is totally so not working.
so say, how much i wanted to perserve on to carry on saving to my goal. =(
i'm so lost, in the world of my own.
yong won he nay gyot tay?
sorry seems to be the hardest word,
yet i said it.
then how now?
she recalled the times she looked at you with those affectionate eyes, wishing so much that you were hers.
against all odds, their fairytale came true.
yong won he nay gyot tay? moo lie yo.
bi an nay, sarang hae.
Rachel / Rae
24th nov 1989
raeraerae_@hotmail.com
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